optimism crash

i realized a couple hours ago that the reason i was believing so firmly that i'll be cured within a couple weeks is that i'm going absolutely insane and need to be cured NOW. sucks.

i managed to actually stay awake and find stuff to do since 5:30 this morning. i only stayed awake because i was really jittery and couldn't fall asleep. thank god, i'm really tired now.

i didn't watch any movies today, just a chunk of the project runway marathon. damn those people are talented.

all i have to say is, thank god for phones.